Christmas is beginning to infiltrate our home, our eldest daughter is desperate to get the trees up, she wants sparkly lights and Santa. I’m trying to hold her off a little longer. It’s not that I don’t love Christmas with them, I do. They have certainly returned my Christmas magic, but my Christmas is always tinged with a little sadness because it means that once again, I am facing the anniversary of the death of our son and that does make it a little bittersweet.
Having been absent from the world of social media for a few days, I logged onto Facebook to find a newsfeed full of “Make your Christmas wishlist here” posts. As to be expected this time of year, these wishlists are everywhere. It got me thinking about my own wishlist. I’ve had some sudden and unexpected changes happen to me recently, things that have really put me on the back foot, made me re-evaluate a lot, things that have changed me forever. So what is on my wishlist?
I could ask for a handbag – but why? I’m not a handbag person, I carry one out of necessity rather than desire. I need somewhere to shove my purse, phone, keys, wipes, hankies and Calpol sachets. So I have a handful of Kipling bags in different colours that I alternate as I fancy. I also have a very lovely Chloe handbag that my hubby bought me a couple of years ago and spent an obscene amount of money on. It is very beautiful, but barely used and that obscene amount of money would have better spent on shoes!
That brings me nicely on to shoes and boots. I am definitely not a fashonista, however, I do love a nice pair of shoes or boots and would pay handsomely for the “right” pair. I have already bought two pairs of boots recently though, so even for me, I don’t need any more.
I already bought my winter coat.
I don’t wear a lot of make-up, wouldn’t particularly appreciate it and to be honest he wouldn’t know where to start with that kind of purchase.
Perfume – I have more than enough already for doing the housework,school run, gardening and jumping in puddles, thank you very much.
Jewellery – I have two children under the age of four, my jewellery now stays firmly in my jewellery box on the dressing table. With the exception of my wedding ring and one necklace, none of the rest of it gets worn.
Music - I love music, however, I have an IPod crammed full and any new stuff I fancy I usually get from itunes.
A KitchenAid mixer – there is no doubt, I do quite fancy one of these, however, I have barely enough time as it is at the minute. So unless they now manufacture one that shops for ingredients, adds them, mixes it, pours it into pans, puts it in the oven and then cleans up the mess after itself, I’ll pass.
Some tech stuff – phone, laptop, IPad – I have a newish phone, newish laptop and use his IPad, so I really don’t have any need for any more.
So what does Santa get the woman who really doesn’t have any want or need of any of the “normal” wishlist stuff…….
I will be yet another year older in a week and would love these birthdays to continue for many years to come. I WANT and NEED to turn into the crazy old cat throwing woman from The Simpsons, it is my life’s ambition! Ok, I may not throw actual cats, as this would be inhumane, probably illegal and difficult to get my hands on that many cats. I may instead throw tins of Whiskas or Felix!
So Dear Santa, all I want for Christmas is…….
It’s not too big an ask, is it?